Jus I need to talk to you.

Jus,

It's been five months and twelve days, I still can not believe it. Everyone says in time things get better, it doesn't feel that way. You know Camden talks about you everyday, not a days goes that he doesn't say something about you. He misses you so much, he needs you. I wish that I could wake from this dream and life would be normal for him again.
I promise that he will never forget you, I promise to always remind him that he has the best daddy in the world, and just because he can no longer see or touch you, not to forget that you are always with him, always loving him, and will always be there when he needs you the most.
The past five months have been very difficult. Trying to think of ways to explain things to him, before he even ask, I think that I have probably thought of a million things he might ask, i want to be prepared, I don't want to stumble over words, and make him second guess what I tell him, I want my answers to be enough for him to where as he doesn't have to wonder.
I want him to have you back, to tell ya the truth. This sucks, his life was not supposed to be this difficult, this is not what we had planned for him, we both have dreams for our son, and this was not it. I just can't believe it, five months, five months that he has missed with you, he really needed those five months with you.